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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

I'm Over It.

I'm so over it. Pregnancy that is. I have been pregnant for over a year, off and on, and I am done. Literally, October 25th 2009 is when I found out I was pregnant the first time. Then I wasn't pregnant for most of November. Then I was pregnant again in December, and then I had a break from January to April after the D&C. So yeah. I think I deserve to be over it.

*My back hurts after standing or walking for more than 5 minutes at a time.
*I am miserable from PUPPP rash (a pregnancy rash that 1% of pregnant women can get. I'm just THAT lucky!) I itch constantly. It sucks balls. The only thing I have found to give me some relief is washing it with Grandpa's Pine Tar Soap, which smells like ass. Honestly, if it wasn't for the rash, I would probably still be okay with being pregnant.
*I'm sick of worrying every time she doesn't move for a small period of time. OMG is she still alive? Is she okay? I know it's a little dramatic, but after what I've gone through, all I want to know is that she's healthy and okay. I just don't think that's going to happen until I have her in my arms.
*I'm SUPER anxious to meet my baby girl. I just want to hold my baby in my arms. I want to know what she looks like. Does she have my eyes? Is she blonde or brunette, or bald? Does she have full lips like Daddy?
*My husband won't have sex with me. He's scared he's going to put me into preterm labor and just freaked out with the whole idea knowing that our child is in there. And although he won't admit it, I know my pregnancy body is gross and probably does not turn him on. Oh well, in a couple more weeks it's actually doctor's orders (to ripen my cervix before induction)!  haha!
* I can't take a shit like a normal person. It hurts like hell, and let's just say I am now a pro with a plunger.
* I'm swollen and my legs and hands cramp up.
* I cannot.stop.sweating! Seriously, It's disgusting. I have to put a towel on my chair while I work (thank goodness I work from home) because my chair will be soaked with ass sweat in a matter of an hour. Any time I'm up and running around I am sweating balls. It was embarrassing the amount of armpit sweat I had going on at my shower. Thank God it's cooling off here in AZ finally! ... but I'm still sweating away!

So yeah. Pity party for two(the second being Cailin. She wants to come out too. She told me so.)... Sorry, but up until now I have not complained at all about this pregnancy. Even in my first trimester when I felt nauseous all day. I have felt lucky for every ache and pain, and took it all as a good sign, and I still do, but now it's just all those things together and like I said the PUPPP rash is slowly.driving me.insane! It's all over my belly, the worst on my stretch marks. And it's turned my stretch marks into these hideous looking things. They're all welted and scarred now. and I think I feel it spreading to my arms, legs and hips. Awesome. And don't get me wrong, I am no way shape or form wishing for her to come early either.

Anyhooters... Now that you know how miserable I am and listened to that big ol' long complaint...

How far along? 32 Weeks

Total Weight Gain?  I'd rather not know anymore. :(

Maternity Clothes? yep

Stretch Marks? see above.

Sleep? Up every two hours to pee, then wake up for like 3 hours at a time just WIDE awake. It's cool though i need to get my ass used to not sleeping. When I am sleeping though I'm sleeping good.

Best Moment This Week? Getting nursery put together. We're like 90% done!

Movement? Feeling less movement these days since she's getting so big. More wiggling and changing positions than kicks. I love watching my belly dance though! Oh, and she gets hiccups all the time which is a funny feeling. :)

Food Cravings? nothing in paticular, I just can't seem to ever get full.

Gender? GIRL!!!!

Labor signs? None, which is good. I still haven't even felt Braxton Hicks.

Belly Button? half in half out. Top is out, bottom is in.

What I Miss? Being able to stand up without help

What I Am Looking Forward To? labor... ? Well you know, not labor itself, but the whole "I get a baby for all that" thing. 6 weeks till induction!

Milestones? hmmm baby shower?


Anonymous said...

thats my daughter-in law!! see you in feb. bill & debbie

Cupcake Mama said...

I am pretty sure you traumatized my dad...he called me and asked if i had read your blog! HAHAHAHA~