Putting It All Out There

So.... Where do I even start? The D word. Divorce. There, I said it. It's happening. Well, technically not yet, as nothing's been filed legally. We've been separated for almost a year now, and at this point are not getting back together. He's just not interested, and I'm over it. I'm to the point where I refuse to be second best, and will not be the only one trying. If he doesn't want me, then I guess I don't want him. At least that's what I'm telling myself, because truthfully, if he told me tomorrow that he wanted to come home, I'd take him with open arms. I still love him dearly, always will. He is a good person. I would even say we're friends. It's very amicable between us, and I am glad we can still hang out and be friends for Cailin's sake. She is the most important, and we both agree on that. Anyway, that's really it. There's no drama, we just grew apart, and he was not interested in trying to fix it. That's the only thing that kills me. We get along, like I said, we're friends. I know that deep down inside there is a spark that's waiting to be re-lit. If we just TRIED.... but again, that takes work on BOTH parties. So yeah. That's what's happening.

For the past year we've been trying to short sale our house. We listed it, got tons of offers, sent it to the lender, they took forever to approve it, they sent an appraiser out, appraisal came in WAY above what we had listed it for, all of our offers backed out. We finally have another offer, and have sent it into the bank, and again, are waiting for their response. I'm at the point where I'm pretty much done with dealing with this as well. If this offer falls through, I'm done. I'll let the bank have the house.

Good news is, I did find a new home! I will be renting. I did NOT want to have to live in an apartment. I hate apartment living, always have. I just wanted a little 2 bedroom/2 bathroom condo.It took a while, but I found one. Well, it's actually 3 bedrooms, which is cool. And it has a 1 car garage. It's in this quiet little community with pretty Pine Trees, so it has a non AZ feel to it, a little. It's older, and the kitchen is a bit ugly, but I'm used to small ugly kitchens I guess. haha! I'm moving in April, and I can't wait to have a little place to call my own. Just me and my girl. She's all I need.

 

Other changes happening? Cailin's starting a new daycare on Monday. My sister in law took a job, and I'm very happy for her. It's bittersweet. I'm excited for Cailin to be in a different setting, but sad because I know she loves her Aunt Jen and her cousins so much. But it's not like we won't ever see them again, I'm sure we'll see them often. I was just so lucky that Cai was able to be with family for such a long time. I am nervous for her, but I know she'll do great. My little social butterfly will have so many new friends by the end of her first day I'm sure. The other bonus? She's going to the daycare/preschool center at my work!! SO CONVENIENT! This will cut down on my drive to and from work tremendously. Right now it takes about an hour to leave the house, drop off, get to work, and same leaving. It'll be so awesome to get to go basically straight to and from work. Cute first day of "school" picture coming soon.

 

So... I'm going to have to rename this blog, as I won't be a carpenter's wife for much longer. Any suggestions?